You Never Know

When I was 20 years old my father got me a plum job acting as a security guard on the graveyard shift at 666 5^th Ave, one of Manhattan’s most exclusive office buildings. The job paid $10.00 an hour, which was an astronomical sum at the time. The work itself could hardly be called demanding: basically I sat at the security desk reading until someone buzzed the door to be let in. Then I would check his ID and, if he proved to be legitimate, would grant him access to the building. It was certainly nothing that my college educated brain couldn’t handle.

One evening, though, I had committed a serious security breach by failing to lock one of the side doors on 52^nd street, where I was stationed that evening. Normally, it wouldn’t have been a problem, because I had a perfect view of the door from where I was sitting. On this particular night however, I was more tired than usual and must have accidentally dozed off. When I awoke, I was dismayed to find a scraggly old bum-like fellow staring straight at me. I could smell the guy from my seat behind the desk and the odor that emanated from him was anything but floral. His clothes looked like something he picked out of a garbage bin, and his face was filthy with the kind of foul smutz that only a place like Manhattan is capable of producing. I don’t know what pissed me off more: the fact that this dreg of humanity was invading my turf or that I was so negligent in performing my duties that I had inadvertently given every psychopath in the area access to the sweetest piece of real estate on Manhattan Island. Whatever the reason, I was peeved and was not going to let some reject from the streets cause me to get into trouble with the higher ups.

The old bum stuck out his right hand, and in between his filthy index and middle fingers held a battered cigarette that he had either scrounged off someone or found on the street.

“Got a light, buddy?” he asked in a gravelly, gin-soaked voice.

“Sir,” I said, none too courteously. “I’m going to have to ask you to leave the premises immediately. This is private property, and you are not allowed in the building after hours.”

That would show him I meant business, I thought to myself. I certainly had mastered the art of perfect bureaucratese.

“I just need a match to light my cigarette, that’s all,” he went on, obviously not bright enough to catch the malevolent tone in my voice.

“Look sir,” I said, making no attempt now to be even remotely civil, “I’ve asked you to leave the premises, and if you fail to do so immediately, I will be forced to contact the authorities.”

The old fellow just looked at me intently and then took two steps closer to the security consol, so that our faces were now only a few feet apart. There was something decidedly eerie about his appearance, and I felt a slight shudder run down my back.

Still staring me straight in the face, he began to talk. Not just any ordinary kind of talk, mind you, but a flurry of strange sentences strung together from numerous languages, living and dead. Now, I’m certainly not a linguist by any means—I could barely get through high school Spanish and Latin—but even I could tell that this man’s mastery of German, French, and Italian was incredible. There were some other languages he threw in too that I was not as familiar with—possibly Polish and Greek—and a few strange guttural languages that seemed like they belonged to another world entirely.

I sat mesmerized as this strange fellow regaled me with his linguistical litany. Then, as suddenly as he began, he stopped.

“Be careful,” he said to me, now appearing much larger and more ominous than before. “You never know who it is that you’re speaking to.”

With that simple statement, I felt my guts collapse inside me. “You never know who it is that you’re speaking to.” It is quite literally true. Who was this man? And why was someone so obviously well educated going around trying to bum a light off dopey college students posing as security guards to earn some money during their summer break.

He turned to leave the building, but I knew that it would be wrong for things to end this way.

“Just a minute sir,” I said. “I think there might be some matches in the drawer here.” The matches were exactly where I thought they would be and I gave them to him. He stuck one of them against the side on the matchbook and lit his cigarette with it.

“There’s hope for you yet, my friend,” he said as he took a long drag from his cigarette, the smoke from it creating an ethereal aura around him. “Just never forget what you’ve learned tonight.” With that he turned around and walked out of the building.

You never know who it is that you’re speaking to. For all I knew, this bedraggled old fellow could have been Jesus Christ himself, coming back for his final judgment. There was definitely something otherworldly about him, although if you asked me, either then or now, what exactly it was about him that made such an impression, I suppose I’d be hard-pressed to give you an answer.

All I know is that if Christ was planning to come back to judge the living and the dead, I seriously doubt that it would be in the form of Michelangelo’s Son of Man—so damned powerful and awe inspiring. No, my guess is that he would return to earth looking like one of the scorned and forgotten many—an HIV positive transvestite or a mentally ill cleaning woman or a Republican congressman. Or quite possibly he would come back looking like a nasty old homeless person trying to light a cigarette on a hot summer night.

And, when that happens, woe to those who fail to remember the sacred lesson I learned that evening: “Be careful. You never know who it is that you are speaking to.”